Thoughts, planes, and marathons

I’m back! A little later than I hoped, but I think it’s been worth it, because I have a lot to talk about.

For a while now, I’ve considered making YouTube videos. I always loved to make them when I was younger. It seems fun to get back into them, but every time I sit down to record, I get caught up in the aesthetics, the concept, what I should say, what the theme should be, and it quickly loses the appeal. I have succeeded once recently. I filmed the video, edited it, and uploaded it. But… that was three months ago and it’s unlisted now. It used to come so much more naturally, that I’m starting to think it’s probably just an outdated dream. I don’t want to be rich or famous because that comes with a lot of stress and all I really want is peace and a trip to Europe. A life like that isn’t any less full than one where you have like five businesses, live in a mansion and have a legacy to be remembered for all eternity. But people always use that as the example of “dreaming big”, which I tried doing for two years before eventually realizing I never like the idea of doing that stuff, I just liked the idea of liking it. Hopefully that makes sense. So yeah, to follow up on my last post, it definitely pays to go day by day. That’s not to say I’ve quit having goals, at least not shorter term ones, but worrying about them isn’t helping. I’ve just started thinking about learning a programming language to further explore web development. I’ve made a whole video game-before and I loved the coding aspect and the problem solving that comes with it, so it seems perfect. I’ll let you know how it goes if I continue down that path!

We live five minutes from the airport, so every Friday morning-evening, heaps of planes come flying right over our house! It makes me so excited to imagine where they’re going or where they’ve come from. I almost never got to see planes for 7 years, because we were living in a rural Australian town 3 hours from the city. Now they’re so close, that I applied for a job at a fast food place in the airport.

I had to decide between customer service in retail/fast food restaurants, administration in small businesses, or going the work experience route. Honestly, part of my reason for wanting to do the latter two options was because I was trying to avoid/postpone the inevitable interview process, because I’ve never done one before (for my first job at a medical clinic, all I had to do was accept the offer since my dad worked there already) and the thought of it makes me nervous. But now when that thought comes up I just say “Lol yeah that’ll be easy” and instantly the nervousness dissolves. I’ve started doing it with other things and nothing seems hard or overwhelming anymore. When I was 11 I went through a phase where all I did was scroll through minecraftforum.net and apply for staff on Minecraft servers.

I made a billion different resumes, filled out applications, took multiple interviews (even live voice ones), I was never stressed about it. I just thought it was so cool to be Admin or Moderator or Helper. I even tried to make my own server quite a few times times, designed entire websites for them, so I could be the one hiring people. Now I’m out here trying to get a job in real life, realizing it’s not actually that different, and seeing it in that way has made the process so much more fun.

A little update: expect to see new photos in the gallery around the end of each month, because that’s when I clear my camera’s SD card.

The 2024 Paris Olympics started a few days ago. Me and my mom watched the opening ceremony (not live because we would have had to get up at 2 a.m. or something) and I rate it a 7.5/10. Many cringe bits, not a fan of the dancing, the *weird* historical bits, or the “fashion”, but I liked the Assassin’s Creed-looking guy parkouring on the rooftops and the more subtle references to French culture and history.

The actual games have been fun to watch as well. So far, I’ve been most impressed with skateboarding, mountain biking, gymnastics, BMX cycling and equestrianism because the horses are so cute. I can’t wait when the marathons come on. Recently we – me, my mom and my brother – have been going down to a nearby netball court and timing ourselves running around this one square. Today we went down again, and I got a personal best! Not only that, I can see progress in my style and endurance. My chest doesn’t hurt anymore and my calves aren’t aching (we’ll see about that tomorrow morning though).

Sorry this got so long. Thanks for reading! See you again soon.

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